confused

I have found myself being confused... I mean really confused, for the past couple of weeks. I just don;t know what to do anymore. I really do not know what the right choice is. Because if i choose one way it could end great, amazing even, but it could also be terrible. I mean heart wrenching terrible. But if it's something you've wanted for so long now... do you take the risk? i don't take risks. I hate that fear of things not working out. I talked to someone about this today. They said they dont take risks because of the fear of something working. I'm the opposite i don't take risks for fear of things not working. How do you risk everything.. for the possibility of something amazing?

Somebody tell me the right choice..

Home is where the heart is

I think eating the marshmellows out of the box of lucky charms is probably the best thing in the world. one of the highlights of coming home is the food. i mean hello, lucky chamrs, sweet action! also i got to go to hong kong. i have been craving good chinese food for what feels like forever.

i have had a truly good day. i got to spend a few hours this morning cuddling up and being goofy with the boyfriend. he makes me smile. definitely the best way to wake up and start your day. then me and chels drove in to mesquite. and ive spent the rest of the day with my parents. i've really missed them. i haven't been home since january... truly far too long. and then i got to see my grandparents as well. i've missed them too. all in all its been a good day. except i miss matt :(. how pathetic is that.. i've only been away from him for like 12 hours and i already miss him. i'll see him tomorrow night though, i think i'll survive. ;)

you know what i enjoy? when things seem to all fall in place. i've been evaluating my life and while there are definitely aspects where im struggling i am truly blessed. i have an amazing family, amazing friends, and a better guy than i could have ever dreamed possible. i am truly grateful for how things are right now, i dont want to ever get to the point where im not gratefuly.. i think that would be the saddest thing in the world, to not appreciate all the things in your life. ok enough with the preachy talk.

so it is definitely spring break! hallelujah!! and i get to work tomorrow monday and tuesday. buut wednesday through sunday i get to go to new mexico with my baby. :) I'm pretty stoked (yes i just used the word stoked.. enjoy it!). i'm really looking forward to getting to spend time with him and his friends. I really enjoy his friends they are good people.

I'm just starting to ramble. Oh! I heard a song on this nivea commercial. And i loooved it. It's called "She is Love" by Parachute. Very Cute!!
http://www.islandrecords.com/site/artist_av.php?artist_id=676
Listen and enjoy. and with that I'm getting off of here.

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