Sunday, December 30, 2007

good friends, good music, good times

well it has been a very good couple of days here lately. i came home for my mom's birthday so i have been around people for a change. i actually got a chance to hang out with an old friend of mine. i always enjoy spending time with old friends, him in particular. there is something about being around someone that you have so many memories with, it's nice. i wish we could have spent more time just me and him but he invited his girlfriend to hang out with us so she was around all evening. i tried to like her but i suppose im too critical. i just can't stand your normal annoying girl and honestly i just couldn't stand her. she got on my nerves.

but one good thing about my visit with him is i found some more amazing music. he is my music go to guy, so everytime im around him he introduces me to new music that i can get obsessed with. this visit it was the new iron and wine cd and the new stars cd. both are absolutely amazing. i particularly like the song "resurrection fern" by iron and wine. it is so beautiful. you can listen to it on their myspace here: http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendID=3800361

and here are the lyrics:
"In our days we will live
Like our ghosts will live:
Pitching glass at the cornfield crows
And folding clothes

Like stubborn boys across the road
We'll keep everything:
Grandma's gun and the black bear claw
That took her dog

When Sister Lowery says, "Amen"
We won't hear anything:
The ten-car trains will take that word
That fledgling bird

And the fallen house across the way
It'll keep everything:
The baby's breath
Our bravery wasted and our shame

And we'll undress beside the ashes of the fire
Both our tender bellies wound in baling wire
All the more a pair of underwater pearls
Than the oak tree and its resurrection fern

In our days we will say
What our ghosts will say:
We gave the world what it saw fit
And what'd we get?

Like stubborn boys with big green eyes
We'll see everything:
In the timid shade of the autumn leaves
And the buzzard's wing

And we'll undress beside the ashes of the fire
Our tender bellies are wound around in baling wire
All the more a pair of underwater pearls
Than the oak tree and its resurrection fern"


such a beautiful song...

Friday, December 28, 2007

loneliness

i think it takes a special talent to be able to live by yourself. after only about a week and half two weeks of being in the apartment by myself i already feel like the loneliest person alive. simply because my roommates aren't here to keep me company. i have been picking up shifts at work just so i can have something to do with my time. i think i have also been helping in keeping blockbuster open (i've rented tons of movies). i did get to go home for christmas day (i had to work both christmas eve and the days after christmas) so it was nice to have some human interaction then. but sadly i will continue to be alone until after the new year, the roomies won't be returning until january 6. so my lonely days and nights will continue for some time more. luckily i work a lot next week. and on my two off days i'm going to go up to work and type some packets for the managers. they're lucky i have nothing else to do with my life.

also with my roommates gone i have noticed that i don't really have any friends besides them. my one other really good friend here no longer speaks to me (and even if he tried i don't think me or my tear ducts would last very long...) and i don't hang out with many people from work and school friends (the few that i so actually have) have all gone home for the holidays. Am i the only person that's left here alone in this town? there is bound to be someone else that is bored out of their mind that would be interested in making a new friend. but i suppose that even if there were such a person a) i wouldn't know how to find them b) they wouldn't be interested in being my friend and c) i would be working too much to do anything with them. but wouldn't it be nice to fool myself into thinking i had so many friends and invitations to do things that i was just turning people away... *sigh*

normally i am very content with my handful of really close friends and that's it, but for some reason the loneliness here lately has made me wishing for more. i suppose it is simply selfish wishes to keep me from boredom and not really the want for more friends. i would just be using them anyway.

things i have done so far while i was alone:
-rented/watched:
-superbad
-p.s. i love you
-the fountain
-skin walkers
-speak
-v for vendetta
-gosford park
-the office season 1 and 2 (the uk version)
-elf
-miracle on 34th street (both the 1947 and 1994 version)
- a christmas story ("deck the hars with bars of harry. far ra ra ra ra")
-made the outline for 3 mix cds
-found out about tons of new music
-watched about 30 episodes of ghost hunters (i'm obsessed)
-updated my itunes
-organized my music

seriously i need some company!

questions on love

so i went and saw "p.s. i love you" tonight. i was just wondering does a love that strong and that powerful really exist?
do guys seriously ever fall that deeply in love with a woman?
i'm not so sure anymore. seems to me all they are ever interested in is sex.

good movie though. made me cry.